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#7   I'm just a freak Kind of a creep A loser, one of a kind A weirdo, locked in his own mind  You're a star, shining so bright Eyes of the palest blue You have the soul of the moon in you How could I compete For an image so complete?  Look, I used to rap a lot That’s a lie, I just used to write in a notebook a lot Putting down rhymes, I had talent, my God So how did it all end up like this? With me daydreaming of your lips I used to have a goal in life, I swear But now all I can think about is the way you wear your hair Goddamn I used to cuss a lot That’s a lie, I still cuss a lot It’s like a second nature  It just comes out whenever life introduces danger I don’t know why I do that I was raised on Disney movies, and all that Maybe it’s cause my family was never there Second kid to last in a flock of eight “Number seven, here to take my beating today.” I'm just a freak Kind of a creep A loser, one of a kind A weirdo, locked in his own mind  You're a star, shining so bright Eyes of the palest blue You have the soul of the moon in you How could I compete For an image so complete?  I used to hate myself a lot A lie? It’s not. I was raised to believe, that everything wrong was to blame on me And blame on me, I did Every day of my life  I destroyed myself at night Because that’s the kind of love I was raised with A freak, a loser, that weird kid Goddamn You used to worry too much Now you’d hold my hand We’ll be doing Netflix & chill And you’d stroke though my hair saying “This is why we suffered so much, this is why we suffer still. “we’re perfect together, we’re perfect still.”  

K.L. Runaya
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Anthem of a Lost Soul

Xikay - Anthem of a Lost Soul    Look,  I know this may be a controversial topic But someone has to tackle it   I wake up every morning and I'm pissed off "Why?"  Cause every night I go to sleep wishing I'd never wake up "Shit, but why?"  It's this depression that got me in lock, I'm trying to struggle but I can't get out. It's grip is getting tighter, my head's about to pop "Fuck, man. I never knew."  Yeah, I know. Cause all you ever think about is you.  "Nah, man. That's not true." Yeah, but it is, you see? And this is my life, even if it's hard for you to believe. There's no rolling of the dice. Life's a snake and I'm just the mouse.  "But… I care. I do. I've always wished the best for you. Even if I couldn't give it to you."  I wish I could believe, but reality tells other things to me.  "But." No, just hear me out. When life starts shitting me out, no one's around. And I have to get back off the ground, forgotten how to walk, captivated by the sound of my heart hitting the ground.  "But it's just in your head. You see? I'm right here."  For now, and the next moment you're gone. But depression won't leave me alone. "You can't expect me to stay with you 24/7."  No. But remember when I was eleven? And I told you that all that was in my head, was me: wishing me dead. Twenty years later and it's still the same. Now, I may sound selfish when I call your name. But I'm not just asking anyone for a save. "How can I when you never tell. All the secrets you keep, the fake smiles you give away, giving people the idea that you're all okay."  Of course, how could I not? When I show my mental state my friends are the first ones out. You can't accept someone with a frown, but expect me to let my smile down?  "That's not what I meant."  Then maybe you should've watched what you said, when talking to someone with a dark clouded head, but you'll be mad at me instead, for the truths I said. "You think you've got everyone figured out and no one's your friend. Because when you face your troubles, there's no back to lean against. But can I just say that you seem to forget, everyone else has their own problems in their head."  You don't need to remind me, cause I was there. When your girlfriend left, I was there. When your world broke apart and your reputation was left in the dark, I stepped up and let you inside. Yet, here I am. Nowhere to turn. Begging a friend to help me stay safe. And you're just about to slam the door in my face cause you got yo' own problems to face.   

K.L. Runaya
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Unexperienced Odyssey

Xikay - Unexperienced Odyssey    Can you, can you hear? The stage is calling me Unexperienced odyssey Who would welcome me?  I feel, I feel it strong The desire to flip the script Society's fucking shit   Look, I've been writing rhymes all my life And most of the time; I couldn't tell left from right But I've found my plight An anxious kid trying to take the stage With a boy-ish charm and scars on my face Yeah, I lived in many different ways I could tell you about the drug days Or how my momma cast me away Time heals all wounds, is what they say And comedy my walking stick A complete picture if I add this spliff   Can you, can you hear? The stage is calling me Unexperienced odyssey Who would welcome me?  I feel, I feel it strong The desire to flip the script Society's fucking shit   If I had it my way, I'd already be a household name But society had other plans for me It would crush my dreams and make me sick It would put me on a butcher's bench and gut me like a fucking pig Then the salt, right in the open wound And tell me to "get the fuck out and do something with your life, you fool" It would fill me with anxieties, that I never knew were a part of me Cause growing up, I was a happy kid Just fucking around telling jokes and shit Not giving a fuck what my mom would think "Cause the beating's unavoidable", is what I would think   Can you, can you hear? The stage is calling me Unexperienced odyssey Who would welcome me?  I feel, I feel it strong The desire to flip the script Society's fucking shit   And now soon, if luck would allow me too I might surprise you too With the controversial shit I pull Cause not everything I say and do is a'ight Don't forget, I'm just a human mind But the things I have to say Are told from experience, not ignorance in any way So if one day I stand on stage to tell some jokes and everyone looks I hope you remember that I wrote this shit Before I got big. 

K.L. Runaya
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Walking Paradox

Xikay - Walking Paradox  I'm a walking paradox  I crave the attention, but hate their vicious talking mouths I'm a shoe without laces And I never spent time with the favorites I smile with pride at the mirror while I look at myself in contempt I crave nothing more than happiness, but this sadness makes me feel so content  I never cared what people thought of me, but it's also the fight in which I bleed   I know what you think of me It's displayed on the canvas of your face, you see I'll never let you get away from me If all you ever do is expect bad things from me I'm living fantasy Otherwordly to the people around me Can't bring myself to act their way Cause it pains my soul to slave away for their society   No, you can't expect a lot Don't get me started, you will drop I may put myself as last But when push comes to shove, I know who to cast    I'm a walking paradox I care for humans way too much And they're the ones my heart doesn't want to touch Their hate and lust They crave too much And in my service they trust Refuse them, I can not Cause I'm a walking paradox    I'm a walking paradox Hit in the head by my mom too much Running outside in bleeding socks Yelling "strangers beat me up"  To the cops who picked me up Cause I didn't want mom to cut out my nuts Like she threathened me once   I'm a walking paradox I talk too much, but I hate to speak I eat too little, but I love to feast I cry too little, but I do love tears They clean the soul, but not the fears   I'm a walking paradox It's fearless, the way I seem But it's anxieties only, inside of me I want too scream, but I hate the noise I'm a walking paradox I'm scared of the dark, but in love with the night I used to love love, but then it took flight Lonely every night, but alone in right mind Writing lyrics, with no music in sight Only in mind  

K.L. Runaya
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